Thursday, April 14, 2011

The never ending obsession.

It's not a new thing, it's also not an old thing but all my life I think I am struggling with my body weight issue. Since I was in primary, secondary and even now in my college days. What is it about being skinny that is so awesome?
I guess it's about being comfortable in your own body that matters the most right?
Because you see, when you are forcing yourself to lose weight like all the time, you are limiting yourself in indulging all the good foods in the world. And also you have to maintain your food intake and not forgetting the portion of food and so on and so on.
So tell me, why up until now I think 7 out of 10 women all around the world is struggling to lose weight. Can't we just accept it?
But I understand cos I am at the same position.
I love the way I look at certain times, I love my body and I am comfortable.
Just when you see everything in a good and positive way.
One person came and started to critise about your body and your whole confidence drop down to below -0.000.
I experienced that and at the same time, I also experienced people telling me that I loss weight and blah blah blah. Not sure whether they actually mean it or what la. Hahah ( I am thankful for that by the way cos it made my day)
My whole point is that, one person will always want something more. Back in high school, I thought I was one of the fattest girl in school but now when I looked back at photos from my high school years, I was quite satisfied with the way that I looked actually. Maybe because I am extra huge nowadays and now I am dying to be in my high school size again :(
I also envied people that inherit fast metabolism rate. They can eat what they want without getting the excess baggage all over their body. Unlike me, yeap unfortunately I inherit the Caucasian gene where by we are big in size and I prefer the term CUTE! Hahah
This never ending drama is eating me up inside, not literally I mean. Sigh.
Back in my modeling days I thought I was fat as well but when I looked at it now, I was damn skinny. And in my modeling days, I wanted my high school body back cos I thought I gained weight. Phew! What the heck am I rambling about now.
See, my main point is that we always, I mean always want more in life.

So tomorrow I'm gonna go for this Unduk Ngadau DBKK selection round, and I hope the panel of judges  will not only judge based from the way I look, my body size that is.
I hope they will also see the good side in me, my positive energy, my bubbly personality and and my goofy-ness. Hahah! Basically I hope they also look for something that is beautiful in both ways, maybe I am not the ordinary beautiful girl you see, but I can assure you that I am beautiful on the inside. (Cehwah! Mcm Miss World pula :P hahah)
Nevertheless, as cliche as it may sound, we are all beautiful in our own way and we should treasure it. Fill your thoughts with all the positive energy and I will channel my positive vibes to you as well!

Love and lots of hugs and kisses ;

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Still in love.

Still in love with my MacBook :) hahahah!
And I especially love the Photobooth ;)
So here are some of the photos that I took using Photobooth :)

My new Apple!

I have to blog about this! I just got my second Apple gadget yesterday! The new MacBook Pro!!! Although it was only the 13" one but I am head over heels owning this laptop I've been using my iPhone 4 for almost 5 months now and I am truly in love with Apple's product. More to come I hope! so here's my latest baby

Love ;

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

A weekend at the beach :)

Hey dolls! I know I haven't been updating my blog. I was pretty much caught up with my mid term exam recently. Thank God it's over now and I can focus on more non-important things in life. Hahah! Last week was just crazy as I travel here and there (travel around Sabah only lah, Hahah) and finally to sum the week was a weekend getaway at the beach. Next trip I'll definitely take more photos, I PROMISE so to end my post, here are some of my vain photos. Enjoy dolls

Love ;